There is one thing that I do not understand about how mind works. And quite oftem, when I am doing it , it becomes both frustrating and overwhelming. Why on Earth does my mind have to associate everything together? It is like comparing apples and oranges. My mind thinks about all the similarities.  They are both fruits that are relatively round. Plus, one time ten years ago, I had packed both in a lunch I ate when we went to a picnic to the zoo field trip with the kids, thus they are the same thing.

It is like this. I get up every morning (which is a blessed thing to do.) I do all my morning stuff that needs to be done in order to feel peopleish. Then it is time to listen to a bit of music. Most days, I am able to listen to a song, get into the song and use that song to help motivate myself to get tasks done. But there are days when my mind decides it is going to have fun with it. Now, the sequence of events that happen are in no particular order, so let’s just go with it. One thing it does is analyze the lyrics and apply the meaning of the song to every possible situation where the meaning of the song applies. This doesn’t just mean current situations, but every time I face a similar situation past, present, or future. The mind has associated the lyric “Baby, please do not let me go” with taking a morning shower, going to the park, purchasing oatmeal, folding my underwear, and flushing the toilet.  But wait, there is more!

Another thing that happens is that these song trigger memories. I have heard that even though ADHD’s working memory is poor, the long-term memory is excellent. Which is ok, but a lot of music that I like dates back to the 80’s.  Do you realize how many times and how many memories can be obtained in close to 40 years? Many.   And of course, the road map of each story is a bit convoluted, never taking a direct path. I need to go down side roads. Backroads, and travel down each driveway along the way. Dang this become a lot.

  And I am not going into what happens when you combine the two. Maybe I will. I leads to hours, sometimes days sitting on my little corner of the couch pondering every aspect of one song, getting absolutely none of my daily household task done. It leaves me feeling like my brain is going to explode and I will have to clean up the resulting mess to that, too. And at this point I have only one way to conclude this post.

UUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH!!